Quick update before I go :)

Oh my god don't you just love the eyelashes. Like totally awesome stuffs.
I know I got my blazer already, but this hot stuff is damn chio can.


Ohkay, yea, I've been eyeing on the first one. And my god its 32.80 SGD. Haha, pretty okay actually.

Okay, Im a happy girl nao, just that my skin is peeling till damn ugly. so fugly you know, Urgh.

Nothing much to write, and there's wireess everywhere in SG right, almost. So just follow me on twitter! :)

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Waiting hurts. Forgetting hurts. But not knowing which decision to take is the worst of suffering.

Look at this, how awesome.Cool huh. Wonder how the feeling is like LOL.
Okay, right now be very jealous of me please. Even though shyd away from camp, I am still very happy (right now only) because I am eating my favourite bazhang. Yes again. My house never runs out of bazhang. Because my granny knows I love it, and always buys it for me. Hee hee. Even though I will go fat if I keep on eating like this, but who cares now. Hee hee.

Okay, just returned from council meeting not long ago. And having a lot of things to do. But thanks to miss neo's big breakfast treat, making me a happy girl once again. Because one sentence I've learnt from OBSabah. "A hungry man is an angry man. And a hungry girl is an angry girl" So I am not hungry after big breakfast, meaning I am not angry. So happy. Okay lame I know. Can't wait for OBS outing on Thursday! :) Hee hee.

Right now, should be emailing Bi Hsin the minutes thingy, okay, Call me lazy. I am very lazy now. Lol. Plus, I still have a ton of sketches waiting for me to do. Okay. Like I'm dying soon. :)

Only reason why I think polaroid are wonderful : Yesterday went out with mother and sister. The whole freaking day at orchard. Finally got my crumpler bag that cost 153 SGD. Lol. Happy to the maximum :) This christmas is definitely better than last christmas to the max. I have my iTouch 32GB, I got my crumpler, and I've a reason to be happy always, because there's this new reason why I survive for love. :)

Now busy syncing things inside my iTouch. And I am going broke. Don't really know how I will survive on Sunday when outing with Obs friends.Think maybe go work then get money la. That's the last resort. Really damn broke. I share the price with my sis for her earphones that cost 69 bucks, treat it as her christmas gift. And bought all my stuffs and left me now, broke.

Oh yes, don't remind me that there's tons of homework to be done. Plus, when away from Singapore to Outward Bound Sabah, there's addition of 5 E maths worksheets given. How great. And I almost forgotten about the class outing on 4th December. Haiz, too many things at so little time! There's a lot of things I want to do. I want to catch new moon, I want to faster catch my first nc16 movie with fiona :) And a lot more.

Oh yes Fiona if you see this I think you would be happy. Next year, my mum is bringing my sister to korea on the 2nd day of chinese new year to a later date which I am not sure. So I told my mom, most probably, the 2nd and third day of CNY will be chilling at your house. Cool or cool? :) We'll definitely have a fun time + awesome + bimbotic time together. Can't really wait.

Plus, I can't wait for my birthday to come. I wonder if I am going out with shyd or going out with damien they all. I think is damien they all, cos even though yes, I am looking forward to the other, but it has always been a tradition that I celebrate birthday with damien since our birthdate is side by side.

And I found a hoodie at pull and bear that is most likely add to my closet collection of my simpson's hoodie. Okay, the one I bought in korea is really the WOW yellow simpsons that only cost around 30 SGD. But the one that is so cute and awesome cost 79 SGD. But the thing is, it is really a hoodie only, not for keeping warm or what. My yellow simpsons is really a worth it. Nice, and keeping warmth like hell :)

Anyway, just hoping I can have more kachings la. Whatever it is. I am living up to my bimbotic ways, having an awesome pink casing for my iTouch. Totally cool or cool. :) Okay, and going to eat more shaker fries, because definitely loving it to the max. :)

Okay, nothing to write anymore, will edit it if can. Ciao! :)

Fionny I don't know if you see this. But if you do, I want to tell you that I miss you a lot when I am in SABAH. And do text me if you are coming down on sat, then i'll buy your favourite shaker fries for you :) Love you :)

You don’t just automatically love someone. you have to slowly learn to trust, then you start believing them. You want to be with them more to the point where you’re jealous of anyone who tries to be with that person. Then it gets you mad but you get past it, you can’t be jealous anymore. You can’t because you have this undying confidence that this person will never leave you, they will never betray you, and that they would never pick someone else over you, that you’re irreplaceable. That’s when the confidence hits you, that you really do love each other and it’s unbreakable.

You make my heart smile. Do you know.

I feel so weird nowadays. We don't need to wake up at 6 or 7. And then freak out when there's room inspection at 7.45 sharp everyday and laugh at the guys who always fail with a 3.5 out of 10. And having morning PT at the beach. This is driving me nuts. Leaving me nothing to do. Suddenly, leaving singapore for 2 weeks and come back with a new Michelle, which hearts a totally different guy she had love before she left for Sabah. And didn't really know that wow today was Hari Raya.

I even asked my mum why she didn't work. I thought she took leave again. I think I act like some fool at that time. Felt like a total moron that time. And my scar itch like mad. Plus I don't dare to dream I have beautiful legs. Its like okay I give up on my legs already. Plus this sweet little guy told me :"Ugly on the outside, but pretty on the inside". Make me go awwwwww.

I still had the golden rose I receive. Such a sweet lil thing. Right now I don't know what should I do to spend my time away.

My aunt want to bring me to Sitex on sunday. She wanted to buy mac book for my sis. And a notebook for me. I need not a notebook right now. I rather she buy me a touch or a iphone better. I decide to tell her not to buy it. But I have not. Will tell her on sunday. And I shall pray hard that my sexy duo tone at my tigh will go away before chinese new year come, if not I will cry because it will be ugly if I wear dress. UGH!

I wish I could be this hot.

I am going mad. Soon. I guess

Okay. Hello world, I am officially back. Yes, from Outward Bound Sabah or what you call it? OBS. Yes. Okay, before I went OB Sabah, I pray hard to god that things will change. And I guessed it did change after all. I did manage to move on after all isn't it? It feels so great without thinking about him for the 12 days. And instead having fun at the same time. Great or great? And please the school let us pay 300 bucks for the OB Sabah which I didn't regret going, and yes I've used the 300 bucks properly. Wow. Cool.

It gave me a deep cut at my right pinky on the 2nd day of the course, because I was wiping the window. And there's this slight cut at my finger. I didn't realise anything, then accidentally brushed it there, and yea, blood came. And mind you, it's just the second day. Then we had some bonding games. And next day went for Sailing. Okay cool is, yes, it made me realise how heavy is the wooden ores. Haha. And yes, the fourth day when we wanted to sail back, I gotten coral scratches on my left leg that I swear no guys will want me anymore :(

But that's not the end. We had Kayaking but on the 6th day, Izian think cramp or something, no choice I've to kayak myself, and ended up having to go on rescue boat. the next day with the first day of trekking. I was so terrified can! It's like omg can you imagine yourself climbing something so high up that once a slip can fall to your death? I swear my legs were shaking. And I was thinking of my mother all the time. Plus, a lot of leeches caught me too. And I have beautiful sunburn by then that will freak you out if you saw how I look at that time. But as the trekking go on, its quite okay. Tiring, but still I pushed myself to the maximum already.

And when we finally reached to the main road, everyone was yelling and screaming at their top of their lungs! Haha, so tiring thats why. And next day, yes. Gotten bite by a snake. Yes. A green snake. Stupid incident that make me look like some fool. And create history in Outward Bound to be the first to get a snake bite. I thought the snake was a toy snake. So I touched it. Then I wanted to get rid of it. So it bit me. But the thing is, at that point, I still think the snake is fake. Until blood came out and I saw its tongue coming out. Lol. People ran and hit the emergency bell. Lol.

I swear the hospital was damn scary. I got admitted, so call. Into the emergency area. And the doctor said I was too active till my vein was hard and couldn't find it, so he draw blood twice, but failed. So he told me that he will try it again 30 minutes later. So he poke into my hand again. Then no choice just have to go for blood test with the blood. Then poke another needle into my hand to drip medicine. Imagine can, 4 times the needle go into your hand. So painful. I first time kena such thing somemore. And when I returned, everyone was like screaming, asking if I am fine. I was pretty amazed by myself that I actually survived. Because it was a baby poisonous snake. Just that it is small thats why no poison.

I guess I freak everyone out. And the farewell party was very teary I swear.Everyone was like crying. I can't control my tears too. Today at the airport, I couldn't control too. I couldn't believe the course has ended. It feel so fast. Doesn't look like its 12 days. And I am beginning to miss Helse and Ira. Omg :( Right now looking at the time, should be at the dorm playing and slacking by right, and probably sleeping at only 1 or 2. Feel so weird.

But nevermind, I heard there's some outing going on. Hees, I'll definitely push everything aside for it. Hees.

And right now that I am back. I am so happy, even though some bloody hell people took my slipper. Newly slipper, my mummy goody goody mommy had say that she bringing me to buy my crumpler. Yay :) And there's movies with fiona, outing with OBS friends, shopping and more :) There's fun awaiting. And right now, I am getting used to being single, and getting used to having being so freely without having any guys. And right now the most important I am getting used to not think about you anymore :) Isn't that good?

I guess so.

I wish that I could tell you that I'm ready to be with you but I don't know when/if I ever will be ready. But when I am, I hope that you are still there.

i'd given up on being pretty, gotten used to being the plain one when i went out with friends. last night a guy told me i was beautiful. i laughed. but it meant so much to me.
I feel like jumping all around. I can't imagine the image of me hugging everyone. Yes, thank god he isn't coming. If not I swear I will cry. But yes, I still can't face the fact that I am going to live 12 days without everything. Wow, this is the first time Michelle is doing such things. LOL

Plus, I just don't really know what I am thinking right now. Sigh. Please michelle please be normal again. Argh.!!

Oh kay, so look at the clock, I have 15 hours and 30 minutes before reaching terminal one and sitting the budget air asia to the holy Sabah. For 12 days. Thank god, you must be missing me by 12 days man. hee hee.

Joan will be there :) and others. I'll hug her, cos I wont be able to hug metal teeth. Because he told me he not going, cos he got dental appointment and he follow his mum to go walk walk or what. But then its okay la. actually.

So 2 weeks for this good life girl girl will it be torture? I don't know. LOL. I never done a housework, wash my clothes, and when its dinnertime there'll be food on the table ready for me. Okay I sound so pampered. Or spoilt but I am not. It is just well taken care of.

Haha. Things that I want to get next year. I want to save money to get either a berry or an Iphone. Plus, I want a crumpler, because I seriously can't stand it when I don't have a small bag. It is so irritating. And I want to watch movies with a lot of people. And get the shakespears romeo and juliet book. hee hee. :)

And my wish for next year is the same thing as this year. STOP SWEARING AND SAY F WORD. I give myself 60 marks for this year. Which is like bullshit. Haha, so I will strive hard and improve. :)

My mummy bought me sticky :) hee hee. And after come back I go CHOMP CHOMG! Hee hee.

OKAY, I GTG :) DONT MISS ME. I WILL COMFIRM MISS JOAN, BAND, DALSTON, MENG PLUS BLAH BLAH BLAH AND THEN XIAOTING, AND THEN ERM JING YI CK, AH LONG, AND METAL TEETH. PLUS RACHEW :) AND ALL OF YOU. PLUS FIONNY. OKAY, I SAY EVERYONE COS I SCARED I LEFT OUT PPL

I'm at that point in my life where things are neither good nor bad. They could be better, but they could be worse. And I can't look at anything with a purely pessimistic or optimistic point of view. It's just that point in life when you just have to move foward and hope for the best.

Im not sure if iIm in love with you, or with your actions. I don’t like being in public with you, but alone, it’s amazing. I’m not attracted to your looks.. but your actions. The way you CARE about me and what I’m doing. The way you just touch me softly, like I’m some fragile glass or something. I can’t believe I did what I did.. I regret it. I want to be with you. I don’t want you to have to be called my ‘ex-boyfriend’. that Isn’t possible. I refuse to call you that. We have nothing in common except ourselves. But that’s enough for me.


I think. And when next year starts, there will be new things, new bag, new whatever, but I hope those things will remain. People think I wanted the other for this year birthday wish, little did they know that it wasn't like that from the start.




I still love him. I tell everyone that I don't, but the truth is deep down inside I just wish things were the way they used to be.

I fall in love with you just thinking about you, remembering all the memories we’ve made: falling in love for the first time, staying in love during the rough times, finding more to love about each other every day. And whenever I think about all the wonderful things that lay ahead of us, I fall totally and completely in love with you all over again.

Wonderful awesome day ahead.

I wish...

that I can tell you in a way that you will never doubt my words. That my thousand of sorrys will change your mindset, even though I know it will not. He'll be there to send me off. Before I go on plane, I am able to hug him for the last time. I just hope. Please god. I am sorry for what I've done. But nevertheless, I know it's all dead end. Goodbye.


I am 18.
(Love, M)

In my lifetime I’ve come to realize that you can’t depend upon other people for what you want and you can’t be scared to go out there and get it. You have to dream hard, wish big, and chase after your goals, because no one is going to do it for you.

Life is already complicated as it is. You don’t need people to weigh you down, people to disappoint you.

Just wait and see. You'll know that what you think of me is wrong.

This is an update especially for my bb. Fiona Soh I hope you'll be seeing this. I love you more than any boyfriends that I have. Be it Wilfred, Darren, Kenneth, or Aaron. I still love Fiona as much :) I thought of doing something different for you. Plus, I have much time in my hands now. Don't really like the thought of me buying her things she like because she did many things for me. And she ought to deserve better. Am very happy that I love you, Fiona. Yes you :) And that my nc16 movie is coming soon year bb. :)

Whenever people sees my phone, they saw bb in my contacts, thinking perhaps that is my new boyfriend. Little did they know it will be my closest cousin I had for 15 years, the one that I love so much. Yes you, Fiona :)

So happy that I am gonna meet you this saturday. It's been 12345678987654321 years we've met. And even though you still have O's you still came down :) Pray hard that you'll get good results. Can't wait one day when we grow old enough, to travel together. Perhaps the dream country, yes Italy. :)

I don't really mind what she does actually. because I told her no matter what happen I won't blame her.

I don't really regret in having such a life because she's always there for me.

I love you bb, good luck for your remaing O's paper. AND OF COURSE TOMORROW LIT PAPER. :) LOVE YOU.